Why go through the pain of feelings when you will always get hurt? Might as well stay to myself, be a crazy animal lady who would rather speak to animals who love me than humans who don’t care. I try to please so hard and no one ever tries to please me the same way. Maybe it is just the place I am searching in, it is full of losers who don’t care about feelings? I am a mess of feeling, of emotions and thoughts, so if you are going to come into my life you need to understand that I need more than the crap pickup lines you use on other women. I need someone who cares and wants me to be their lady, their only one. WHY IS IT SO HARD TO FIND SOMONE TO LOVE ME, I NEED LOVE SO BADLY AND YET IT RUNS FOR ME? Fine I won’t come for you love, and don’t you dare come knocking on my door later when you see I am no longer chasing you because I am sick of your games, you sick freak. I am done fighting for something that so clearly isn’t for me, so this is good bye to the crappy bubbly feelings that only last for a day. Good bye to the crying at night about how I can become more important to you, or why only creeps and losers want to speak to me so they can get sex that I so clearly won’t be giving them. Good bye to the hopes of getting married and having a family, or finding someone who wants me in their life because I make it brighter. I am caring for me and only my feelings. I am focusing on my happiness and care little for yours. I am not going to change my whole being so you will be happy with this fake version of a woman. You stupid little weak men who can’t seem to understand how much these girls go through for your happiness when you care little for theirs, fuck you. You don’t deserve the energy they waste on you, you don’t deserve anyone who cares even an inch. Girls don’t throw yourself away for some stupid relationship, love isn’t everything in life.